This morning instead of attending the service, we went to the Discovering Woodland Hills class, the first of six or seven classes one takes to become a covenant partner of WHC. To be honest though, I was having a desperately tough time staying awake and my interest was most certainly not piqued. The last thing that I can imagine is being involved in “ministry” before these issues with “church” and my cynicisms are dealth with—and on that note I am meeting with Greg Boyd this Wednesday to talk about some of those things and to get his feedback. I also plan on talking with one of their counselors there and see if I can’t just get all this out on the table and sort through it with the help of someone else.

I’d consider using one of our in-network counselors, but frankly it’s gotten too expensive to do that—instead of paying co-pays, we end up footing much of the bill. I’d rather go to someone who’s trained (but not licensed) for free, then pay $100 a visit for someone who’s licensed and basically just listens and once in a while throws out a thought or two. I need someone to help me get at the root of these problems and help me deal with not just the symptoms and peripheral items, but the root reasons as to why I’ve been feeling this way.

One thing’s for sure, it’s getting difficult to tolerate doing this “on my own”.

August 28, 2005, 2:35 pm

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